Alternate universes: yay or nay?

Do you think there are alternate universes? I believe it could be true. That sounds like a very standard answer for every question you don’t know the answer too but I have some thoughts about it. I don’t know if they exist, cause nobody really does, but I do believe we on earth are not the only one in the Universe. The universe is huge so to say we are the only living creatures in the universe is hard to believe for me.

I think it would be amazing if there were alternate universes! Could you imagine what it would be like to live in something so completely different (like Avatar, well that was just a planet and not a different Universe but still) or so much the same (like Fringe where they cross Universes) with little differences. I don’t know if there would be a “person” like me in an other universe but it is cool to think other Universes can exist. This one is so big, there is no end (that we know of) but it is coolΒ to think about the fact that our universe might consist in an even larger universe (Men in Black). Man that would be awesome πŸ˜€

If there are alternate Universes I would like to have a sneak peek behind the curtain just to see what’s what, how do people live there, what is life there like. Is it really so different than here or are there just minor differences? Maybe if there is a way to exchange people between other world, what could we learn from each other? I think the answers to these questions are interesting and I am dying to know the answers. Speaking of dying, what if we go to a different universe when we actually die? That’s a question I never really thought of, but that’s an interesting one as well. Do we remember which universe we came from, is that what Deja Vu is all about? They say it’s our brains trying to pull memories together from earlier experiences, but some things you never experienced and still feel like you do. Is that a glimpse in an other universe? Hmm those are some cool thoughts I will think about more, cause isn’t it fun to fantasise about things like this? I believe so πŸ˜‰



Another #SPN post: Proud to be a FAN

My last post about Supernatural was more about why I watch the show. You can read that in my What is it with Supernatural post.

Today I’ll write something about the conventions and the SPNFamily.
As you all know I got hooked on the show while watching panels from a convention.

I’ve watched a couple of other shows panels and the energy they gave me wasn’t the same as Supernatural. I’ve seen ComincCon panels from Finge and The Vampire Diaries. While watching those, as much as I love those shows, I felt bored. Not that the people were bored and the information given wasn’t interesting, but for some reason they didn’t feel as connected with each other as the SPN cast and crew.

No matter who is on the show and at a Supernatural convention, they all feel like family. They all immensely respect each other and treat each other the same. Of course there’s teasing on and off set, but there’s s much respect between them all. If you look at a Jensen and Ty panel in JibCon2013 (Jared unfortunately had to leave early because of an family emergency), I think it was the Sunday panel, Ty tell the story about (I think it was this) how Jensen asked the crew to ask Ty if he wanted to start with his lines or with Jensens.

Ty told everyone that he never ever had that question asked when he was on an other set. He’s been on so many TV-shows but this was actually the first time a main character asked him something like that. I don’t really remember what he told us, but it was in line of what I just wrote.Β THe story I talked about starts at 29 minutes, the rest is awesome as well though πŸ˜‰

When watching Jensen and Jared’s (J2) panels the only thing you can do is laugh. They are so funny, well all the panels are but still, but they can also be serious. They try to answer the question as honest and correct as they can, even though they must have heard some of these questions a million times. They still respect the person asking the question and are as nice as always. Sometimes when they are starting to answer the question it takes a different course, but in the end they try to answer it. As a fan you can expect loads of humor on conventions, but also so much respect. Every time J2 have to leave they tell the fans thank you and that they love seeing them/us (I haven’t been yet) and even though they don’t see their families a lot they do take time for the fans (family). They really show appreciation towards the fans and all the actors/ crew that make this how possible.

Actors that portrayed only a small role on SPN, and are at a convention, turn into family as well. Richard Spade and Sebastian Roche both had an impact on thee show with their characters, and just because they aren’t in the show any longer, they’re still at conventions and they still have a big impact on the rest of the crew. They are as much part of the SPN Family as the main characters are and that’s shown at all conventions they go to.

It is so funny that there are so many people who don’t know Supernatural. Everyone I meet and tell them about the best show ever look at my with questioned eyes that tell me “you’re crazy”. Most of them don’t know the show and if they hear the name is Supernatural they think it’s a show about “the supernatural”. Which it is not! What it is about you can also read in my other blog. The short version is it’s a show about two brothers and their bond, what they go through and how they connect. Besides that it’s a show about hunting the supernatural πŸ˜‰
The fact that only SPN fans know about GISHWHES (Greatest Scavenger Hunt the World has Ever Seen) says a lot. While being active in the hunt you realise there’s so many fans worldwide. I realised that on Twitter. Before GISHWHES I had about 100 followers, now I have over 300 (and that’s only because of GISHWHES). When you see another GISHWHES post on Twitter and look at the profile, you’ll notice that most of these profiles are SPN fans.

SPN fans also listen to the same music. Take Jason Manns for example. When you have a ticket for a Jason Manns StageIt (online concert for the fans: show and ask who is a SPN fan, you’ll get the reaction “You can better ask who isn’t”. This is kinda cool, cause while being a fan of the show you also get introduced to other great artists.

I’ve noticed that when you aks something in a SPN Facebook group or on Twitter, you get the nicest and most honest answers from the fans. They support the show but also each other. Doesn’t matter if you live across the world, if you need something they will give it to you. And that’s why I am proud to be a member of the SPN Family! πŸ˜€

The magic of #GISHWHES

Last week was the third GISHWHES hunt and I participated. It was grazy, hilarious, freaking stressful (at times) but so much FUN πŸ˜€

GISHWHES means Greatest International Scavenger Hunt the World has Ever Seen (, @whatsgishwhes). It’s a scavenger hunt created by Misha Collins (actor (currently Castiel in Supernatural), CEO of Random Acts of Kindness organization). He wants to create some chaos in the world but most of all he wants people to have fun, use their creativity and crawl out of their daily rituals/ shells and do something completely different. Therefor he invented GISHWHES. It’s international so all teams (15 people per team across the globe) are scattered around the planet. They try to create random teams of people from all over, that’s what makes it great. You can sign up alone or with other people.

When the hunt starts there’s a list that’s getting published for all the teams. When you browse through the item list you sign up for all these things you think you can do. And than the next they you’re freaking out cause it’s sooooo much and you have no idea how to work it all out. After day 2 though you’re on a roll and you’re just having fun and start to create your items. And that’s when the real fun begins πŸ˜‰

Some people think it’s ridiculous to participate in something like this, but let’s face it: it’s so much fun πŸ˜€ It’s not only because it’s fun to do this, but you also help people. You help people get over certain lines they otherwise won’t cross and they really want to. You can get people out of their shell and that’s one of perks off being in a team. People grow in GISHWHES and people let go of the shame on certain items. Like me, I never ever thought I’d like to pose in a photo wearing weird clothes. Now I posed in a wallpaper & plastic outfit and a tea bag swimsuit!

IMG_4177Tea bag swimsuit

And guess what: I couldn’t care less πŸ˜€ I presented my funny stuff to my colleagues the other day, and I wasn’t ashamed or nervous. I told them I thought it was a great cause (get out of your comfort zone and just break free!) and it still feels that way.

We also had to take a picture in a team uniform. As we all live across the world we had to decide what to wear and take a photo. We decided to wear a white shirt, a pan hat and an aluminum foil skirt over jeans. So that’s what we did. And although we all wear it differently it looks great!


Another task I did was making a quilt of dirty old socks. In the beginning I had no clue how to do that but it looked like a fun project so I took it on. I went to all my family member and a couple of neighbors and had loads of socks to quilt. I didn’t know how to put them together so my colleague told me to staple them. I did and that worked a bit. I just more than 1000 staples and when I pulled the quilt of the ground they let loose. I decided to sow them together row by row from the back and that worked quite well πŸ˜‰ It also was so much fun and quite relaxing πŸ˜‰ I had Supernatural (what else) on at the background and just sowed. When Β was almost finished I came up with another idea, I had enough socks left to “write” a G (of Gishwhes) and a ’13 (of 2013) on the front And it turned out exactly as I pictures. Than it was time to crawl up under it and let it look like it was cozy (that was the assignment). My friend came up with the idea of me looking sick and was just lying on the couch under a comfy blanked. So that’s what we did.


I had so much fun doing all of this and I learned something more about myself also.Β GISHWHES is great to get to know yourself better. I signed up for a couple of things and later I thought “Oh no way I’m going to do that!!” and than you start to think why you won’t want to do that. Is it fear? Probably! Why fear? Probably because you think that the people who you’ll need for that assignment think your crazy (so you’re trying to think for someone else, which is NEVER EVER a good thing πŸ˜‰ ), but who cares. If you walk up and explain it in a funny way and you’re really convinced that they’ll help you and that it’s going to be fun, they will help you. They will feel you’re positivity and your enthusiasm so you’ll drag them into that and it’s going to be fun!

I’m definitely signing up next year and I’m sure I can do loads more than. I already have some things I want to work on this year so I’m more prepared for next year, as prepared you can be for GISHWHES that is πŸ˜‰ Not only as Β preparation, but also because I really like to do these things and I love being creative.

– drawing things, people, faces etc. (I like it but do it not enough to be good at it)

– painting (I like to get creative and I like it, but don’t do it enough)

– crocheting, cause it’s fun and relaxing!

– planning parties (cause, why the hell not right πŸ˜‰ )

– starting conversations with complete strangers (because that’s always a good exercise and it’ll be fun πŸ˜€ )

I’m not using my creative side enough. I think everybody is creative and while you’re doing GISHWHES you’ll find out how much you can do and how funny your brain works in putting it all together. You can create what’s in your mind and that’s MAGICAL πŸ˜€

The teamwork is also pretty important. The team will help you get through the hard parts and they keep you sane. When you’ve got too much on your plate and have to skip items and you’re freaking out they just tell you: Don’t worry! HAVE FUN! Cause that’s the biggest part of GISHWHES and what they want you to accomplish, just have fun and leave you’re comfort zone and see what you can accomplish in a week. And that is a LOT!!!!!

Our team video will give you a little impression about what we did and what people felt like. It’s not the whole team, but there’s time limits and these where the only video’s that we had. Turned out quite great though!

I think everyone who likes to act crazy once a while should definitely sign up for GISHWHES at least once in their lifetime, hell I think everybody should participate in this hunt even if it’s just once πŸ˜€

Thank you Misha for setting up GISHWHES, thank you Jean Louis for keeping Misha in check and thank you to my great team and friends who helped me get through this abnosome week!

Much ❀ and I can’t wait for next year

Perfect summer day

Yesterday, June 29, was a perfect day. Me and a girl friend of mine went to the beach as we try to do more often. Finally the weather was good enough to go, even though I would’ve gone if the weather wasn’t good.

Yesterday we went to Bergen and Bergen aan Zee. Bergen is a little town in North – Holland (province in The Netherlands) and next to it is a beach town called Bergen aan Zee.

As we don’t see each other a lot we always have some catching up to do. But we mostly just hang, and do our own thing. We hang out, be our own crazy selfs and just enjoy all of it.

We went to Bergen for a little shopping and a stroll over the Saturday market and then to the sea. After a few mishaps we run into while trying to park we finally were able to sit at a beach club and order something to drink. The wind was chilly but behind glass the temperature was great.

We talked some and than my friend decided she wanted to have a walk on the beach. Like always we do that separately (well I haven’t done any walking yet, I just relax at the club, have a drink and enjoy the sun :))
Before she went for a walk I decided to go to the restroom, that’s where this day got interesting and a lot more fun.
There was this elderly lady who began talking to me when she saw that I have a tattoo. She told me that her daughter (in her 50s) wanted one and that she would give it to her when she made up her mind of what kind of tattoo she wanted to have. Than she asked me if there was any meaning to my tattoo and I explained. I told her I got my tattoo because I needed to get more courage (grow some balls as we put it in Dutch) and just do the things I want and not constantly thinking about what other people might thing about me. I told her I had to suck it up and just be brave. The tattoo I got was already drawn out but I adjusted it to fit me. Now it’s something that fits me perfectly (as one of my best friends told me when I showed her). The lady thought that was great and we talked about some other stuff and when I laughed she told me I have such a beautiful smile and that I was a beautiful girl. When she asked me if I had a boyfriend I said no, than she asked me if I had a girlfriend and after I said no she asked me if I wanted to be her girlfriend just as a joke. That made me laugh even more. I thanked her about the compliment and we parted ways (Love that saying b.t.w ;)).

When my friend was on her walk and I was listening to some music while having a tea and enjoying the sun the lady came up to me cause they’re leaving. She told me to enjoy my holiday (which I wasn’t even on, but still) and that the loved me saying “I had to grow some balls” and she said “You have them girl!” That was awesome, I won’t forget that in a while. I don’t wanna forget either cause that was great.

When we were driving back home I played my new favorite Bon Jovi songs on repeat (and it’s only a couple of song so we hear them a lot) and my friend just kept laughing when I turned up the volume, again, and just started to sing a long. I know I’m crazy and I love that I can be as weird as I am with her. She loved it too though. She told me that it was awesome that I can be so excited about new songs, being a fan (and paying for golden tickets for a Bon Jovi concert or going to a Supernatural convention in the future), and I told her it’s because I just started to feel alive. I haven’t felt I was alive for over 23 years, I think (read this story to find out why). I started living at 23 so I have a lot to catch up on and this is how I do that. I just do what I like and what I want and don’t take no for an answer.

I know I am weird and different and that I like what most people I know don’t like, but I’m finally at that point where I can just say “Fuck it! I don’t care! I like what I like and you like what you like and that’s okay”. I love that all the people around me are different, they all like different things and that’s what makes my life so amazing at this moment.

To all my friends, whether in Holland or not, I love you all and thank you for being in my life. You are amazing!

Lots of love and hugs – Ilse

Total randomness: the introduction

A lot of the time when I don’t have things to do or when I’m on the way to some other place my mind just keeps rambling thoughts and images. I think in images a lot and thoughts mostly pop-up. When I don’t hang on to a though the next one comes popping up quickly.

I thought it would be hilarious to write stuff like that down to see where my thoughts go and what I’m actually thinking about. See if there’s a pattern and if there’s stuff I’d like to think about more and work it out. It would also be a great way to see what things frustrate me and what things make me laugh.

To do this I’m going to sit down and for about 30 minutes I’m going to write down what I see and think.

So now I am trying to start with this little exercise. Curious about what comes out πŸ˜€
– I hear some birds
– Yah the SUN
– Oh there goes the sun …..
– My nail polish looks awesome
– h
– g
– What am I going to think about now
– Love the SUN
– I need to go an make some breakfast
– Don’t forget to take your pills before breakfast
– There’s a little bit of wind
– The leafs of the tree are really green
– πŸ™‚
– I see a lot but don’t have many thoughts at the moment …….
– hmmmmmmm
– You make a lot of noise little duck
– Happiness
– Silence
– I’m content

So there’s a couple of thoughts going on. This was only 5 minutes, if I really make it till 30 I probably have a bunch to write about πŸ˜€

I think I’m going to like this little exercise, I hope you too πŸ˜‰

Have a great day y’all!



Once in a while you get an email, text, Facebook message/ post or Whatsapp message with a chain letter. I kind of get the idea of spreading the love and making wishes come true and stuff, but there always have to be something to gain for the people who created them. You either have to share it on a social network or you have to forward it to x-many people, otherwise your wish isn’t coming true.
I don’t get that. If these messages are created just to help people or spreading some love into the world, that should be enough right? I always hate that there’s strings attached with these kind of things.
Not that I believe in chain letters, but if I like the message I’m not spreading it because I need to get my wish granted (which never happened to me this far), but because I love the message and want to share it with the people I care about.

Me and the UK … it’s always an adventure

WOW what a day!!! Haha I had an amazing adventure today going to Hove, England, and ended up right where I started: Home! It might be typical and Engand might not like me but I’m not giving up πŸ˜€ I’ll will get there one time without any difficulties πŸ˜‰

So here’s my summary of the last two times I went to the England visiting some friends:
The first time I went to Brighton I found out that my new phone didn’t have any service in England. The rest of the world (well I’ve only visited countries in Europe since but still) there’s no problem, but in England there’s a sim lock. I arrived late at night and wanted to call ahead so the people I stayed with knew what time they could expect me. That didn’t happen so I showed up a little before midnight. Luckily they’re up very late so it wasn’t a problem.

Than there was my trip to London for a show. I’ve wrote about that trip in an earlier post (November 2012) but it was like this in short:
I went to Brighton first for a visit to my friends. My phone still didn’t work so I tried to figure stuff out for that. My plan was to arrive in London around 4pm so I had enough time in London to find my hostel and get something to eat before the show. I was in London and thought I could walk to the hostel. Turned out I got out of the wrong train station and got lost. I arrives at the show almost an hour after the start, I was in time for the main show/performer, but I missed some awesome artists. I met some great people there though. It was a good trip after all but didn’t go without hick ups.

And now this trip …
I found a cheap train ticket to Hove (the website only listen one Hove where I could go by train) so I booked it. I was excited that I could visit some awesome people for a couple of days and it didn’t take me so long to get there. The train went through Antwerp and than to Hove. At Antwerp I checked the trains for Hove and found something strange. After Hove there were all these stations back in Belgium. I got suspicious that there might be an other Hove, but then in Belgium. I went to the information desk and my suspicions were true. The lady told me “Yes but you can’t go to the UK for that amount of money”. How the hell should I know about that. So I asked if I could go to Hove UK and what it costs. It would take me about 2,5 hours and 300 euro’s extra for a round trip. I debated what I should do, stay in Antwerp and look for a cheap room or just go back home. It took me about 30 minutes, with some nice Chai Latte from Starbucks, to decide I just took the train back home.
So now I’m back home, took a nap and had something to eat, not what I was planning but something fast and easy and still can’t get my head around where it all went wrong. I can laugh about it but it was a long day.

So maybe next time there will be no hick ups when I go to Hove or London! I know my phone still doesn’t work there so I have to fix that there but other than that it would be nice if I could just go there normally πŸ˜€

I can’t wait for what’s in store for me tomorrow and the day after here back in the Netherlands, wasn’t planning on being here so I’m excited! I know everything happens for a reason so I hope I figure out what that reason is….

But for now here I am with a huge smile on my face, shaking my head in disbelief, typing this up and totally at peace.

From behind this little new tablet of mine I wish you all a very good evening (on this side of the globe) and a very good day in the rest of the world.

Have a good one!