I think I finally know what I’ve missed all these years I’ve been searching for myself.
I missed understanding. When I was little I felt I was always left out and didn’t know why. I always thought it was cause I was insecure, with acne, glasses and braces. Now I think it was because I’m HSP. People didn’t understand me, not in school and not in my family. I didn’t understand myself and thought there was something wrong with me. I couldn’t figure out what I felt and how I was supposed to feel. I couldn’t level with my classmates and I didn’t understand what they were going through.
Finally now I know that I’m HSP I know what I feel, wat I don’t feel but pick up and I understand myself. I also understand other people and its okay that a lot of people don’t know what HSP is and that they don’t understand what it is. I know I shouldn’t put a label on myself or other people but this is who I am and I know the qualities that come with being HSP.
Do you ever feel that you don’t live up to societies expectations? Why are we led by what other people think of us and their standards instead of our own?
I have no idea but I know I sometimes feel like I don’t do what’s expected of me. I’m 30, single, have a nice place have amazing friends and a job with great colleagues and I try to go on exciting trips.
Sometimes I feel like I’m doing it all wrong and that I’m supposed to be settles, cause you know you’re 30 and all……
And you know the funny thing is is that I have no clue about what I want to do when I “grow up”. I don’t feel 30, I feel like I just started my life a couple of years ago.
So why do I feel like I’m doing it wrong?
I have no idea, buy what I do know is that I want to do the things I want to do on my schedule and not want to compare my life with other people my age.
So that’s what I’m going to try to do and if you ever feel like they way I just written down try to follow your own path and not someone else’s. It’s your life and you should live it the way you want to. I know I will!
A few years ago I discovered that I’m a HSP (Highly Sensitive Personality). This doesn’t mean I’m exceptionally emotional but it means that I take in the impulses from around me more than other people. I smell, see, hear and feel more than or deeper than 80% of the population, which I can handle just fine.
A couple of months back my colleague and friend was pregnant and complained about the smell in the school where we both work and I told her that I smell that also, but I smell that all the time.
And then a couple of weeks ago a friend on mine posted on Facebook that she could smell something pretty bad from a distance. I directly thought, welcome to my world!
When I tell people about me being an HSP they automatically think I’m emotional, and even though I might experience emotions more intense it’s not all about emotions with an HSP.
I think it’s funny that “normal” people feel some aspects of being HSP and get annoyed by that.