Expectations and realizations

Austin

So I’m sitting here in Austin as my second week of the summer vacation is about to start and I’m having this incredible realization. I’ve been here for a week, house and dog sitting my friends house and dogs (obviously:) ). They took me to a couple of places before they left for Europe and after that I felt like I fell in a hole.

Last year I picked Austin as a city I would like to live in, even though I haven’t been there yet, all these signs about Austin kept coming up and finally I decided I wanted to move here. I didn’t have or wanted to make rush plans and just let it sink in. A few months ago my colleague told me her mom was going on a Europe trip with them and they would probably wanted someone to take care of their house and their dogs. I’d happily said yes. And now I’m here and I love the weather, yesterday we had some Houston weather (which meant more humidity than normal here in Austin) but overall I like it. Yes it gets hot, it gets really hot, but it’s not the hotness of not being able to breath anymore.

I figured that when I move here I’d be indoors most of these hot days anyways, cause I’d probably have to work here too:) I think the hottest hours are from 11.00 – 17.00, which usually means it’s between business ours and in the weekends there’s a ton of places to cool of, like lakes and pools and oh yeah airconditioned houses😛

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Back to that whole hole falling episode. My friends took me out to a couple of places and the moment I was alone I didn’t know what to do. I was kind of afraid of getting out of the house. Why? I don’t know! Maybe because I had to “defrost” and just getting used to the fact that I’m actually here. I loved the places my friends took me too and I went out to the store for some groceries and to the movies (which is always a huge safe haven for me). I got online and RSVP’ed to MeetUp events and I did a Yoga class. After that class I felt a lot better. The atmosphere there was great, it was a good sweat!

The day after however I felt the same. It felt like I had to do more. I told a lot of people I was going to the place I want to live and I felt pressure (which I put onto myself, let’s be honest about that) to fill my days up with exploring Austin. Cause I felt like I had to have stories when I’d come back to Holland. I also asked myself these funny questions like: “but where are you gonna eat” or “where are you going to park” and that made the “fear” and doubt greater. It is a bit overwhelming figuring out what to do without having someone else with me. I usually don’t plan on holidays, I want to relax and if the friend who’s with me has plans or wants to do stuff I just tag along. I don’t need much.

I called one of my friends the other day and she asked me what’s wrong with not doing anything? I honestly couldn’t tell her… I don’t care if people have an active vacation or a vacation they just hang at the beach and relax. So why do have to do stuff? Don’t know. I’ve been around, driving bits and I loved it. I took the DuckTour yesterday and I ate on 6th Street in de Bikini bar, which was amazing. I experienced the traffic here and I know I can handle that too. I love how green it is here, there’s so many trees, there’s lakes and the river so I don’t have anything to complain about. She also told me, very wise that friend of mine, part of moving to a new city is experiencing it and figuring out what’s there. That’s part of the fun of moving and living in a new city. I don’t have to know everything about it, I just have to know if it feels right.

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I want to relax when I’m on a vacation and I don’t want the pressure of having to do anything. And that’s something I realized today. I am here in the amazing garden, sitting in the shade, listening to birds and crickets and I’m relaxed. Yes I am to experience Austin, but part of that is also being able to be here with just me and be okay with just being me and with me.

I got a couple of things plans for the next coming days and I’d like to go to the beach next week. I don’t have too much planned for this week, but that’s okay cause I still got 3 weeks left and I can do whatever I want. I don’t need to come back with huge stories, I want to come back relaxed and really for whatever comes next in my life. If it’s moving to Austin, I don’t know, but I do know I can live here. It feels good and that’s basically all I wanted to know, so it’s safe to say: Mission Accomplished😀

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Meeting Jared and Jensen: Take two

I know it’s been a while since VegasCon, but hadn’t found the time to write about it yet.

Vegas 2016 for me started on Friday before the convention. I’ve met up with my friend at the airport and we stayed at an Extended Stay hotel across from the Rio. I thought the bus would take us to The Strip easily and fast, but that didn’t turn out to be the case. I discovered Uber and I loved it: Just order on your phone and the ride is there to pick you up at your location and drop you off wherever you want to go. No payment needed.

Shows

Saturday and Sunday basically where some recuperating days and Sunday night we went to a show: Tournaments of Knights and it was hilarious. It was a dinner show set in King Arthur times so that meant no utensils, just eating with your hands. Which I loved every second off. While eating that chicken I thought: I’ve always wanted to know how it felt to eat like that and now I knew.

Later that night we got some tickets for KA and did some gambling. Tuesdays we went to the Luxor ahead of the show and played some slots, what turned out to be fun and we won some cash.
After dinner we’ve got some drinks before the KA show and the show blew our minds. WOW! Those are some incredible artists. A couple of rotating stages, amazing special effects and on top of that the outstanding performances.

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Wednesday before registration we met up with some more  friends/ family for dinner, where one of them proposed to the other, which was perfect and amazing and I’m so glad I was able to witness this special moment.
At registration we met up with an amazing person who was standing behind us in line and became instant friends. I am fortunate enough to call her my family too.

Thursday the convention started and Richards opening was again epic. He didn’t have his sidekicks Rob Benedict or Matthew Cohen by his side but that wasn’t noticeable at all. Right than and there he started the “High Church of the Holy Dicks”  and everybody loved it.
Panels on Thursday and Friday where so good I laughed almost those full days. Gil had the “weirdest panel ever”, almost fell off the stage, Osric came out in a suit and Karaoke was a blast, like last year. Jason had an amazing panel with songs and questions, Brianna and Kim had a panel where I was cracking up the whole time. Hilarity galore😀 Saturday special was amazing and definitely special. Everyone who showed up was at their best and made it great.

Sunday: J2day

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Sunday is always J2’s day, which meant Jared and Jensen are in the house for their panels (2 if you have Gold, 1if you don’t), auto’s and pics. I got a pic with Jensen and shared my Jared op with my friend. Meeting Jensen again was a little nerve wrecking beforehand cause of last year. Last year I was totally fine right before the picture and I froze. I could barely get a “Just a hug, please” out and even though I love the photo from last year, I wanted a “real”  hug this year. I knew if I kept “bear hug”  in mind I’d be fine. I was one of the first 50 people to get the photo taken and it was right after the gold panel. At the end of the panel I started to get really nervous and my thoughts where running wild: “We are almost the same height, how can we have a bear hug and a cool photo?” “Oh I hope I can get a word out”  where the thoughts that ran my mind. I was standing in line between two girls who’s never been to a con and told them it would be great, the boys are amazing and you can ask them almost everything. My mind kept racing and than Jensen came in, talked to Chris (photographer) for a bit, took his time with people who couldn’t stand in line (cause they where either in a wheelchair, on crutches or elderly) and that was so nice. Chris also makes sure that he takes the best picture ever for that experience, so if he can make it better by holding your crutches in one hand and his heavy camera in the other, he’d do that.
So while standing in line, observing all that and having my mind racing I told myself to quit it. Last year went great, Jensen is a lovely guy and he’s just a person. A person who inspires me a lot, but still just a human being. So I took a minute to take some breaths, felt myself in that room in that moment and calmed myself down. When it was my turn I looked up said hi, got a hi back and I think I asked for a plain old hug or a bear hug (the exact words I don’t remember) I opened my arms and took a step, which made him laugh and he went in for the hug too. I laughed, looked at Chris, got the picture, looked back, thanked him and than tanked Chris and I walked off with a huge grin on my face.

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Later that day we had our Jared op and for some reason I’m never nervous meeting him. Last year was great and this year was great too. I shared my op with my friend and it was a lovely picture like last years. After Jared’s op I figured I’d take a look if the Jensen photo’s where already done and to my surprise it ended up the best photo ever!
So here’s the ops of this Vegas Con:

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Overall I laughed so hard I still felt my abs a week later, I could spend time with amazing people, had two perfect photo ops and was able to thank the boys again.

Next year they will hold a convention in Hawaii which will be the first time ever in SPN con history. Even though I am so fortunate to have gone to two Vegas Cons already and I have so many great memories, I’d like to be able to go to Hawaii too. Just because it’s a first time thing and I’ve always wanted to go to Hawaii anyways so why not start or finish it with a convention😀

Media perception …….

I have been talking to a friend about the affects of being in the public eye and I wasn’t going to pay much attention about all the made up information that people get to see or the very inappropriate questions these people get from reporters/ paparazzi and all that, but it keeps bugging me. So I figured why not write it all down. The first draft was full of emotion and mostly frustration towards the media. As I trying to be a person who always tries to look at the positive things in life and in every situation I chose to rewrite it somewhat.

Why is it so hard for media and paparazzi to leave artists alone? I chose not to use the word “famous” cause I don’t like it. These are all artists or athletes/ performers whose life have been turned upside down and sideways and for what? People make stuff up as they go about these incredible people (yes all these people are incredible and an inspiration to at least some), these people inspire/ help/ save peoples lives and this is their thanks? That’s just so incredibly silly to me. All those people are performing an art, they do what they love and maybe some of them want to have the attention, I don’t know, I haven’t asked them and I don’t know their lives, they want to show the world their craft and because they want to share it with the rest of the world and people know off them, know their name and maybe a couple of facts, they get all this negative attention thrown at them. For me that seems pretty unfair.

Look at this incredible insensitive clip where my first reaction was: WTF, what have they done to you to call him that!

I’m glad the boys from One Direction are mature enough to handle a question like that, but the reporter? Come on! Can’t you really find a nicer way to introduce your “story”?

People might say: “Yes but they chose to be this person”. I don’t agree with that. Yes they chose this craft, they chose this line of “work”, if you can call it that, because they love it. They (well I hope most of them and at least the people that inspire and have made me change) didn’t choose to be well known, they didn’t choose to be “famous”. They just wanted to share their stories with others and that’s incredible. That’s something we should be grateful for, cause without them there wouldn’t be any music, movies, TV shows, there wouldn’t be any new stories to tell, there wouldn’t be characters we can relate too, there wouldn’t be emotion we could drown in, there wouldn’t be heartbreak, laughter and all that. So WHY is it so much to ask to leave these people alone.
Interviews to ask about their projects? Yes I’d love to know their thoughts on it. Meetup with “fans”? Yes, cause it works both ways, they inspire us and they create from what they learn from us or they simply want to give back. All the rest? No, that shouldn’t matter. As much as I’d love to learn about them from them, like in interviews (I know they’re all media trained and know what not to say, I do think however they give show us who they are in some extent)

When I see videos created by fans, like the one above, about their inspiration with the difference between the media version and the “real” version I feel really sad there’s still so much “information” being spread that’s hurtful and probably not very true. The only people who know what happend are the people involved and if they choose not to share that with the rest of the world, that should be fine. For me it is. Do I say I know the people I admire or the people who inspire me? No you won’t hear me say that. I know I don’t know them, I know what they show me in their interviews and panels and behind the scenes, their concerts and their own created videos they post online. That’s where I get my information about them. I read it in fan encounters, which might be subjective too, I know, but I also know they’re probably more accurate than whatever “news” site who got their information second hand. I wish someday I could sit down with any or them to just talk about stuff, life, what’s going on, what’s on their minds, their tattoos, what’s life like on the road, or just sit and hang.

I also think it’s a shame so many reports about these people are negative. Why not throw around some positivity. If you’re gonna make up a story (and yes that’s a judgement) about them, why not create some amazing positive vibes. That’s what we all need in our lives. Laughter, fun, love, caring people, craziness, just random fun stuff, not breaking people down, judging them for the way you see them.

So spread love, any kind of love! Love is Love and it always wins!

Peace out!

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Tattoos and heart

I’ve always been interested in tattoos and the stories behind them. I’ve also known someday I would get one. That someday was about 4 years ago and it was a very unique and special moment. My friend told me that once I would get one I would probably want to get more and guess what, she was right:) Last spring I got number 2 and number 3 is also on it’s way.

Talking about tattoos is interesting to me because opinions about them vary so much. Some would love to have one but don’t know what, others don’t like them and think it’s a shame that people get them. Everyone has their own thoughts and feelings about them and I think it’s wonderful, it makes conversations interesting, to find out why someone is or isn’t interested.

I used to be somewhat offended when people told me it’s a shame to get a tattoo or it ruins your body and questioned it like “Well, don’t you worry about when you get older? What if you get sick of them or regret having them.” I might’ve gotten offended because in some extent I had the same questions and didn’t know how to answer them. I also think everyone had the right to have their own opinions so I let people think what they want, but I want to explain how I feel when they ask.

I am living in the now more and more and I think there’s no point thinking so far ahead cause if you want to do something now, than you should, if it feels right I can only say “Go for it”. Now is the time you live and not 30 years from now. Who knows how I feel about my tattoos in 30 or 40 years, but also who knows about technologies changes that’s coming our way in those years? Wondering and worrying never helped anyone before so if I want to get a new tattoo I’ll just get it:)

My view on tattoos has completely changed when I heard someone talk about why he gets his tattoos. I thought it was incredible and it made me think about my body differently. He explained that whenever he had a memorable moment or something got stuck in his head that he would tattoo it on his body. After that I thought: well my body is my canvas it’s the canvas of my life, there’s scars and freckles that define me so with the tattoos I’m only painting it in more. This is who I am and these are my stories. If you want to know about them, just ask. The tattoos are reminders of my life that I don’t want to forget and now I never will. I won’t loose them and because they mean so much to me already I will never regret having them. Even when I’m grey and old, these stories are what got me there😉

I like what I like.

Recently, last weekend that is, I found out about One Direction. I know I come very late to the party, like 5 years late, but that doesn’t mean I don’t join in on all the fun. At first I thought it was a cooked up boy band, I did not know they where put together during X-Factor in 2010 and I for sure didn’t know who they were. You can never know a person for what you’ve seen online and on screen but after “researching” (a.k.a. YouTubbing) a bunch of video’s, their backstory (their movie This is Us), their X-Factor performances and their concerts now I can see what all the “fuss” is about. I’ve seen these boys grow up 5 years in the 3 days I’ve been exploring them and what I’ve seen is pretty incredible. Their music is happy and catchy and it just makes me feel good, what music is supposed to feel like:)

From what I’ve seen these boys are still grounded, genuine, honest, truly grateful for what they have, amazing performers, artists and real human beings. They are also completely mad and insane, but that’s what I love even more, that they’re completely themselves. Mainly I’m talking about Harry Styles, I don’t know if it’s because there’s so many more video’s on him I found or just because he looks great, or just how he is, but he’s way too precious for this world. Look at the video below, created by 1DIRECTION VIDEOS:

He doesn’t care what people think, he is honest and he truly cares what’s going on around him. He loves to interact with his fans and I know I haven’t been to many concerts, but I know this is special. I can feel it when I look at these video’s, there’s too many to add so I am not going to add a lot but some of the video’s I’m adding mean the world to me and maybe for you too. Like this one, one amazing compilation about Harry Styles, created by SofyJDrew:

I love people who are sincere, honest, grateful for what they have and are completely themselves. Whether they’re actors, like Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles from Supernatural, or the boys from One Direction, a “boy” band. It doesn’t matter to me who you are, what does matter is how you are and the way you make me feel and that’s why I love the people I love.

Here’s a part of a Jared and Jensen panel from a couple of weeks ago, they’re talking about meeting fans and what to do when we see them out and about and don’t know if you can walk up and come to talk to them, video is from shawesum and the best part of the answer, at least for me, starts at 5 minutes:

People judge too much and that’s why other people can’t be themselves or are afraid to anyways and that’s a shame cause these people are amazing and if everyone would be more like them, the world would be a better place.

Some people think I’m crazy or weird for supporting either Jared and Jensen (from the C.W.’s show Supernatural) or One Direction, but you know what? This is my life, deal with it, or get out. I love what I love and I don’t need to explain or find a reason why. I know deep down it’s for a reason why I love the things I love and the amazing people I’ve described above deserve everything good that’s coming to them because they are good people and that’s what matters. None of them ever thought “I want to be famous”, NO they just wanted to create, music, television, whatever, they wanted to tell stories and inspire people. Well they’ve inspired me and they keep inspiring me.. Because of them I want to be a better person, want to change, no I say that wrong, I want to become more myself and if you can make people realise that, unintentionally, than you are an incredible human being in my book.

Feelings, Oh Canada and some road kill

This clip reminds me of what happened after Nashville. I started towards Charlotte, North Carolina, cause that’s what my pendulum told me😉 When I arrived however I had no idea what to do. I found a parking spot, went into the city and felt totally lost. Normally I like to wander about and see what comes up, but this time it felt different. I was looking for a Chamber of Commerce and couldn’t find it in the first place, which must’ve been a sign. I asked a security guard at the old building where I could find it and walked over to the new place. Normally the Chamber of Commerce have people that work there to help you out, see where you can go and advice you. This new Chamber however was a small place in the Convention Centre, with no people around to ask questions. I looked at maps and flyers and nothing really stood out. I didn’t know what to do so I got out and crossed the street to get some lunch.

I texted my friends and I felt completely crazy. I didn’t know what to do, what I wanted, where to go and basically it was a tornado in my head spitting out randomness and craziness without having any clue what to do. I got a couple of replies and most of the suggestions of my friends where “Go do something for you, do what you love, rest and clear your head”. As I’ve been either driving towards my friends or spending time with them I basically had no time for myself and I was a little overwhelmed with everything I’ve done so far. I looked up a movie theatre watched a movie and after that I asked google for extended stay hotels. I booked one in Matthews, which was amazing cause that pendulum I used pointed at a street right across the street I stayed at, which I found out the day after I booked the room😉 That week I basically locked myself up in my room, watched TV, slept a lot and I realised I have been running on fumes. I was exhausted and I hadn’t noticed that until I stopped and took a breath. At the end of the week I knew I had to leave, cause I didn’t want to stay there.

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I figured I just got onto a highway and drove to the coast. So there I went on the road again, just driving and chilling. When I got to the coast I arrived at a haven. If  I am going to a coast, I want to go to the beach and not a haven. I didn’t really check out where beaches where cause I wanted to just go and see where I’d end up, without a plan or expectations (which obviously I had, otherwise I couldn’t be disappointed I ended up there). I looked for a hotel and booked a room for a night. When I got into the room I, again, felt lost. I talked to my friends that I didn’t know what I was doing and that I wanted to take this trip without any planning. Just go with the flow. I found out I am not a person who can do that. I need some sort of direction and if plans change that’s fine with me, I am very adjustable, but I need some sort of direction to go on.

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Oh Canada

So I figured I’d go towards Wisconsin where I have another friend. It would take me about 3 or 4 days and all I needed to figure out was which way to go. Do I go all the way up Michigan and than drop down to Green Bay or do I go towards Chicago and than drive up that way? I figured I just drive up to the point where I needed to make a decision to go North or West. I knew someone in Cincinnati, drove up there, we hung out for a couple of hours and my decision was made. I’d go up so I could go to Canada, which was about 1,5 hours out of my way, but hey I was so close so why the hell not right:)

I drove all the way up to Canada, crossed the border, got a stamp in my passport, ate a burger and drove back. “You drove back? Just got food and didn’t stay?” I hear you say and question. That’s right, I just popped into Canada for a hot minute, ate at a road side bar and jumped back in the car towards the US.

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On my way to Michigan and in Michigan was the first time it felt like I was on a vacation. That state didn’t feel like home, all the other states did. There wasn’t anything wrong with the state it was just a feeling I got. I drove all the way up to Canada and back in one day and than it was time to look for a motel. As upper Michigan is a ski area not a lot of places where open, so I had to search a little before I found a place to crash. I found one that was pretty nice and I was amazed that not a lot of other places where open. It was still very cold and the lakes where still frozen so it was beautiful in that area. There was not a lot of snow anymore so there’s no skiing but for the rest I was amazed that there weren’t a lot of people in that area.

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19 April was my birthday and I was very glad I got to spend it with my friend in Wisconsin. I knew I was going to get a new tattoo on this trip but didn’t know when. My friend and I where talking about tattoos and she said there was a good tattoo place near here. We went on a Saturday and it felt good so I decided to get my tattoo right there. My dad texted me around 5:05pm to wish me a happy birthday so on Dutch time I had my tattoo done on my birthday, which is awesome!

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On my actual US time birthday we went for breakfast/ lunch, did some bowling and what’s a birthday without a proper pie? Not a birthday, so we did the whole pie thing too😀

The last town

It would take me about 3 days to get from my friend in Wisconsin to my friends in Bozeman, Montana. On my way I actually participated in some road kill. Seriously??? Yes, there was some little tiny animal crawling right across the interstate and popped up and I couldn’t stop or swerve around. I tried to avoid it, but I drove straight over it and I felt sad…. I didn’t know what the rules where so I kept driving and the way I hit I believe it got killed instantly. That’s what I choose to believe anyway. A little later I saw a rattlesnake on the interstate and now I know how I’m gonna act when I see a snake in real life:)

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In Bozeman I stayed with my college friend, hung out with some other friends and on that night we stayed in our old condo. It’s weird to say it was my condo, because I only lived there for 6 weeks, the rest of the academic year I stayed on campus. My friends parents still own the condo and here brother lives there now. He was okay with us staying there for a night and it was amazing and freaky at the same time. They still had all the bedding and a table I brought over in the room and my friend suggested that I stayed in my old room. It was good and weird at the same time.

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I wanted to go to campus, and I could, but it felt off. One day I was on my way and it started raining so I turned around. The moment I turned around the rain stopped so I took it as a sing. I don’t miss not going to campus this this and I am glad I didn’t go.

While in Bozeman I also met some of my other friends and with each and everyone it felt like no time had passed. It’s been almost 9 years since I left Bozeman and since I’ve seen them and it is incredible that after all this time it feels like no time has passed and that we have such a strong bond.

I am glad I have so many amazing people that I can call my family all over this amazing continent:)

In a next blog I’ll write stuff that I’ve learned along the way, where to go from here and about expectations.

For now this is it😉

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The road so far

Here’s some stuff that happened after that epic 4 days in Vegas.

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Vegas done and moving on? Don’t think so😀

After meeting some amazing people in Vegas and having to figure out where to go next I thought “No, I’m not done yet, this weekend is not over for me, so I’m going to follow one of them.” And that’s what I did. I followed a couple of them to Huachuca City in Arizona. We spend some amazing days together and we both had the post convention blues. We watched some Supernatural, of course, and just hung out and relaxed.

After that I figured I might as well go and visit one of the others nearby Kansas City in Missouri. I crossed about 5 states and 2 or 3 timezones in 3 days and the drive up there was, just like the others very beautiful. I have lost all connection with time and days so I am counting on my phone to tell me. I am not interested in knowing what time it is, cause there’s no need for it most of the time (no pun intended:) ) The car’s clock is on Montana time, so I always know what time it is there, even though I’m about 2000 or 3000 miles away😉

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Lawrence, Kansas

2,5 years ago a fandom broke into my house and said “Dad is on a hunting trip and hasn’t been home in a few days”. The first episode of Supernatural started in Lawrence, Kansas. Now 10 years later, I’ve actually visited downtown Lawrence. I know they shot the first episode in Los Angeles, nowhere near Kansas, but still it’s where the story started and therefor this town is special. Downtown Lawrence is actually pretty amazing! I might come back to check out some more:)

One of, many, great episodes of Supernatural is called Swan Song. It’s the season 5 finally and the last scene takes places in Stull Cemetery (a.k.a. “That’s that old boneyard right outside of Lawrence”: Dean’s words not mine:) ). My friend pointed out I should check that one out, just cause I was close. So I got back in the car and drove towards a cemetery. Crazy? Definitely one of funniest things I’ve done so far. But I was glad I did. Graveyard was closed but I took a few pictures from outside the gate. The amazing thing is that the location scout of Supernatural did an incredible job building that set in Vancouver, cause I’m not actually sure if they actually shot in Stull Cemetery for those scenes. It looks like they had though so I’m really impressed.

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After not having any music playing for the previous 2 days I turned on the radio while being back in the car and this happened and made me laugh so hard!

I know that scene by heart and I think the song started at exactly that same moment and my mind went back to that scene. #Signs, you’ve got to love them:)

Anywho this was all on my way to see my friend near Kansas City. I stayed with her for about a week and in the weekend I finally was able to say “I need to leave, I have to go my own way”. Not that I didn’t want to be there, not at all, we had amazing times together, laughed so hard and were able to speak “our” own Supernatural language😀 It felt like time to move on to wherever.

Wherever? I know, that was the big question, where am I going now? I knew I wanted to go towards Texas, but I didn’t know if now was the time. So I got a map, the only map that spoke to me at Barnes & Nobles, which was the only one of it’s kind. Next? Figuring out where to go and point it out. I had some ideas but also not so my dearest friend gave me a “Wish” stone and a leather cord to create a pendulum and we used that to show me the way. It pointed South East and I figured “Well I guess I’m going to Nashville”. Which I did…….

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Nashville, YAY? Or maybe Nay ……..

When I woke up I just had a bad vibe. I don’t know where it came from and I don’t really care. I figured I just had a bad day, maybe it was because I didn’t really have a plan and people I was going after. Who knows? I went and got into the car and drove to Nashville. The drive up there was amazing and I started playing Bon Jovi, cause it always calms me down and cheers me up.

The moment I drove into Nashville I knew I had to get out. I didn’t know why but it felt so wrong to be there. I didn’t know where to go so I just drove around looking for a park. Parks or river sides always calm me down and I wanted to get out of the car so I looked around and found a park and got out. I took a little stroll to look and than went to sit in the park for a bit. Talked to my friends, THANK YOU, you know who you are, and while doing that I realised I couldn’t and shouldn’t stay there. So I got up, took my map and pendulum and asked where to go next. It showed me to go to Charlotte, NC so that’s where I’m headed now.

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The moment I got in the car and turned on the radio amazing things started happening. First of all Fleetwood Mac came on with their “Go your own way” song and I got a huge smile on my face. I felt calmer and the bad vibe went away. When I wanted to get some food a sign for Ruby Tuesday showed up. Any Supernatural Fan can attest that that is pretty funny (Ruby = character and Tuesday is a day that plays a major role in one of the episodes) Later I found a motel in Lebanon TN, named Knight’s Inn (like Dean was a Knight of Hell, so I knew I had to stay there too:) )

I like this, I like getting signs from the universe and following my own gut and intuition. The last couple of years I’ve been relying on my intuition and gut feeling more and more and this is what it tells me. It hasn’t left me down so far so I’m just going with it.

And all the people I’ve been talking to after Nashville where so nice. In Nashville I haven’t talked to anyone so it’s not the people that made it weird. I got help and lovely chats in Ruby Tuesday and the lady here at Knight’s Inn was so nice, we talked for about 10 minutes and she made me feel even better than I already felt.

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To sum it all up

As off Tuesday March 31 the numbers are as follows:

19 days

13 states

5 time zone changes

3200+ miles

Temperature varying from 40 – 80 Fahrenheit (4C – 26C)

Fun? Uncountable😀

One of these days I’m going to buy a marker and mark it all on a physical map, take a pic and post it here, so y’all can see where I’ve been these last couple of weeks. #Memories

Till next time!

<3, me